Disappointment

WELL, I guess my life is over 'cause Dawson College is gonna give me another chance at exams to get in. I'm so scared I might fail and succeed. And most of my grades were good, or at least reasonable. My dream program in languages was taken in Vanier, not sure about Dawson... And I tried applying online, but I can't find my transcript anywhere and I don't know what my permanent code is. I'm doomed for the second round. The deadline is Monday, April 19 (before 12:00 pm)-- today is Sunday, April 18. I'm screwed... I don't want to lose. I-- I wanna go to Japan. but my dreams are held up now...
My mom has been supportive of me. But now It's not enough.
...Is there nothing I can do?