Sunday, December 20, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Nowadays...
And Then she asked me: "Is he your first love?" I said "yeah..." She awws me over the phone. "AAAAAWWW Soo Sweet!!"
I pray that it won't happen; Please goddess, anyone but Alex. I pray that he will love me one day...love me as I love him...I want to be his first, his second, his third, his everything...
Nowadays things between Ami and I are going well. We've bonded a lot over the few months. I remember how it used to be...
like i always say, maybe hes not ready to date, like he doesnt want to, he wants to pass high school with good grades. you can't just like him and expect him to like you right back right away. Toni is awesome and all but you cant get everything you want. im not trying to boss you around but maybe you should concentrate on something else.
I knew she hated me before. I wonder if she thought i was a dumb bitch before. She probably did. He wasn't all I concentrated on. It's over. gone. why am I still freaking out? It still hurts when I read it back because I remember my birthday heartbreak. worst. birthday. ever.
I don't hate you, Chino said, In fact, I like you.
On friday, He made me laugh really hard. Does he know that I like him? It took me months to clear my name of liking him and people going around suggesting we go out. He treated me differently then. Now, It's like we're good friends. I've made it to step one to being in his heart: be his friend. I notice how sometimes he embarrasses Ami(and me sometimes) but when he plays videogames I'm so proud of him. If he does become mine, then i can brag about him.
Bitch: My man is a doctor.
Me: Well my man is the best videogame player in the world, BIATCH!!!
Yeah. So i do get turned on when he sets up a VCR...especially when he's right in front of me and his ass is facing me...yeah, that could be it. I love him. I love Ami, too.(not in the same way!!) I'm afraid of losing them when I move...and when I go to College. A nerve Ami said once: "If you want we could fight so you don't have to be sad about leaving." I wanted to say, "You bitch! Why would you even suggest that? Why would you want me to risk losing you, especially when I'll never find anyone like you...ever...?" but i didn't. I hid it all behind a smile.
I will fight for him and Ami. I'll not lose them to fate. I'll be damned!!!
I pray that it won't happen; Please goddess, anyone but Alex. I pray that he will love me one day...love me as I love him...I want to be his first, his second, his third, his everything...
Nowadays things between Ami and I are going well. We've bonded a lot over the few months. I remember how it used to be...
like i always say, maybe hes not ready to date, like he doesnt want to, he wants to pass high school with good grades. you can't just like him and expect him to like you right back right away. Toni is awesome and all but you cant get everything you want. im not trying to boss you around but maybe you should concentrate on something else.
I knew she hated me before. I wonder if she thought i was a dumb bitch before. She probably did. He wasn't all I concentrated on. It's over. gone. why am I still freaking out? It still hurts when I read it back because I remember my birthday heartbreak. worst. birthday. ever.
I don't hate you, Chino said, In fact, I like you.
On friday, He made me laugh really hard. Does he know that I like him? It took me months to clear my name of liking him and people going around suggesting we go out. He treated me differently then. Now, It's like we're good friends. I've made it to step one to being in his heart: be his friend. I notice how sometimes he embarrasses Ami(and me sometimes) but when he plays videogames I'm so proud of him. If he does become mine, then i can brag about him.
Bitch: My man is a doctor.
Me: Well my man is the best videogame player in the world, BIATCH!!!
Yeah. So i do get turned on when he sets up a VCR...especially when he's right in front of me and his ass is facing me...yeah, that could be it. I love him. I love Ami, too.(not in the same way!!) I'm afraid of losing them when I move...and when I go to College. A nerve Ami said once: "If you want we could fight so you don't have to be sad about leaving." I wanted to say, "You bitch! Why would you even suggest that? Why would you want me to risk losing you, especially when I'll never find anyone like you...ever...?" but i didn't. I hid it all behind a smile.
I will fight for him and Ami. I'll not lose them to fate. I'll be damned!!!
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